MOM MARCHES ON

WELL WE HAVE HAD SOME MOMENTS..BUT THIS IS MOM IN THE MORNING..FIRST THING.  SHE WAKES IN A WONDERFUL DISPOSITION..TO START THE DAY. I MARVEL AT THIS SINCE...WHAT DOES SHE HAVE TO LOOK FORWARD TO...NOT MUCH...AS THE DAY GOES ON..SHE TIRES...SHE DOES HAVE MOMENTS WHERE SHE REALIZES...THIS LIFE IS TERRIBLE...AND SHE HAS MOMENTS WHERE SHE FORGETS THAT SHE HAS NOT WALKED IN MONTHS....SHE WILL SAY ' WHY CAN'T I WALK, I WALKED YESTERDAY...

THIS VIDEO TAKES A WHILE TO LOAD..SO BE PATIENT...

SHE SEEMS UNHAPPY HERE, BUT I FIND ITS HARD FOR HER TO SMILE. NURSE SAYS, THEY FORGET HOW TO SMILE...THEIR MOUTH JUST DOESN'T DO IT..BUT SHE HAD A BOW IN HER HAIR...A NEW DRESS ON..AND SHE SAID SHE FELT LIKE A  ' SCHOOLGIRL'....JUST DOESN'T LOOK IT UH...........

 KRISTIE HER CAREGIVER BOUGHT HER THIS BEAUTIFUL APRON.MOM LOVED IT AND SAID IT LOOKED LIKE A DRESS.  I DID A VIDEO OF HER SEEING THIS FOR THE FIRST TIME BUT DIDN'T DOWNLOAD IT SINCE I AM NOT SURE HOW LONG IT TAKES FOR YOU..THE VIEWER TO DOWNLOAD..BUT SHE KEPT SAYING ' HOW BEAUTIFUL'

CAN YOU BELIEVE. HOLIDAY AND THIS IS THE WEATHER. SO WE DECIDED TO HAVE BREAKFAST OUTSIDE.  FIRST SHE WAS HOT.  THEN SHE WAS COLD.  THIS PICTURE SEEMS SO PERFECT..BUT SHE WASN'T.  MY IDEAS SOMETIMES JUST DONT WORK OUT THE WAY I PLANNED...BUT I AM PLANNING WITH A DEMENTIA PATIENT. SHE COULDN'T FIGURE OUT WHY WE WERE OUTSIDE...' WHERE AM I..WHY ARE WE HERE ETC...BUT WHAT THE HECK..I TRIED AND IT WAS BEAUTIFUL OUTSIDE AND WE DID STAY FOR AN HOUR!!!

LATELY MOM GETS VERY UPSET WHEN LEFT ALONE..BUT NOT REALLY ALONE. JUST CAN'T SEE ME. I CAN BE RIGHT BEHIND HER WORKING AT THE SINK AND SHE WILL YELL OUT ' HELP I AM ALONE'.  THERE IS VERY LITTLE PEACE IN THIS HOUSE BUT THEN..MOM CANT FIND PEACE WITHIN .

SHE HAS SOME MEDS JUST FOR CONFUSION.  THEY DO NOT MAKE HER SLEEPY AND THEY SEEM TO WORK. WE STARTED THEM AT 2 AND 4.  BUT NOW..3 MONTHS LATER..THEY ARE IN WITH HER BREAKFAST MEDS AT 11..AND THEN AGAIN AT 4.  THEY DO HELP HER WITH HER ANXIETY...BUT SHE SLEEPS AT NIGHT BECAUSE THESE MEDS DONT' MAKE HER SLEEP DURING THE DAY.

SO...UNTIL NEXT TIME...THIS IS WHERE MOLLIE AND I ARE ON THIS JOURNEY.